I couldn't think of a good title for this. I think it might be because I'm so exhausted that my body is beyond the point of needing sleep. If I did go to sleep now I might never want to wake up.

Today is two three (!) very exciting things:

1. I have 20 new sisters today! Of the 27 girls we gave bids to, 20 accepted! This is a huge pledge for us; mine consisted only of 7 girls, which was a mixed blessing, because we're all so close, but it also sort of endangered the survival of our chapter. So ... 20 girls! It's like Christmas, only in September! Every single one of them is amazing, and there aren't any that I wouldn't want to be my little.

2. Today makes one month with my blue-eyed guy. Which is funny, because he had to ask me out twice. The first time was one in the morning and I had been sleeping on his chest on the couch for a while. I sort of have this tendency to have sleep conversations? Like, I'll be awake, but I won't remember anything about them in the morning. So apparently he told me how much he liked me and asked if I wanted to be his girlfriend, and I said yes and it was all very nice, but I didn't remember any of it, so he had to ask again the next day. But he did (thank goodness!), without complaint, although he may have definitely made fun of me for it.

3. I GET TO GO TO THE FLORIDA KEYS FOR THANKSGIVING!

yeah. top that.

Honey and the Moon

Don't know why I'm still afraid
If you weren't real I would make you up
now
I wish that I could follow through
I know that your love is true
and deep
as the sea
but right now
everything you want is wrong,
and right now
all your dreams are waking up,
and right now
I wish I could follow you
to the shores
of freedom,
where no one lives.

We're made out of blood and rust
looking for someone to trust
without
a fight
I think that you came too soon
you're the honey and the moon
that lights
up my night

But right now
everything you want is wrong,
and right now
all your dreams are waking up,
and right now
I wish that I could follow you
to the shores
of freedom
where no one lives

freedom
run away tonight
freedom freedom
run away
run away tonight

-- Joseph Arthur

on fire

So the roomie and I were lounging around in our pajamas late last night after conquering geology and math homework, not saying much of anything really (she was playing a video game and I was watching Whose Line Is It Anyway), but exchanging those kind of deep-seated sighs that happen when you have had the trying-est of trying days, when she suddenly said,

"I'm irrationally afraid of spontaneous combustion. I don't know why."


... say what?

And then we laughed hysterically for the next couple minutes until we realized that it wasn't nearly as funny as we had thought.

These are the things that happen when you don't go to bed on time.

Also, I bought a guitar yesterday. I saw it and had to have it. Now I only need to learn how to play it.

(details, right?)

holy wow

I can't even begin to tell you where life has gone. It's like I woke up today, and I've been at school for almost a whole month already. BAM! Gone. Just like that. Where is my life going? My roommate and I sat on our beds and moaned about this for a pitifully long time recently.

so! highlights:

- My classes are amazing. UH-MAZING. Except for Geology, but whatever. Totally saw that one coming. Most of them are environmental courses, so three or four days a week I'm outside, getting muddy and doing stuff with my hands and tromping around in waders. I feel like a little kid all over again - except hello, I'm getting college credit for it!

- Being back with my friends and seeing some that I haven't been around for over a year because of them studying abroad and me being abroad and all that and anyway, long story short, I MISSED THEM. So the first couple days involved a lot of jumping and squealing and crying but whatever, that's the prerogative of being female.

- Being back with my sisters. I didn't realize how much I missed them until I got back, but having 30 girls around to laugh and cry and have movie nights with and to always have your back is an incredible thing. OH YEAH AND I GET A LITTLE THIS YEAR. no big deal. I've only been waiting for this for FOREVER.

- I'm back at work! And so very happy about it. I MISSED MY JOB. Silly me. Everyone keeps asking, "Why are you back again? Didn't you have enough already?" I love it here, duh.

- My little brother got his Eagle Scout last weekend. I am SO proud! I may (or may not) or teared up during the ceremony. Stupid hormones.

- One of my friends has illegal pets in her room! At the risk of saying too much, they're white and have long tails and little noses. And while I'm not normally a fan of this particular kind of rodent, they are just SO cute! The one likes to sit on your shoulder and sleep, and if your cold heart doesn't melt just a little at that, well, I don't know what will.

- life is just so good, and such a blessing.

sinus infections notwithstanding.

i feel like i've fit an entire lifetime into the last few days. it really is such a crazy awesome beautiful life. i'm all moved into my dorm now, so i'll have pictures of that to put up in the morning, but for now, my favorite pictures from the weekend, and a prayer of gratitude for safety through the hurricane (although it did take out the electricity at my school for a good 16 hours and wanted everyone to sleep in the gym overnight ... but that's another story).

on things with boys.

i suck at relationships.

not in a cute way, either.

i just straight-up suck.

i am so obtuse, so oblivious, that i can't see what's going on under my own nose, half the time.

more than half the time, when i finally realize what's going on, it's too late. or messed up beyond repair.

somebody, tell me - is it possible for your feelings to change in the space of three weeks? can you go from really liking someone to suddenly only being able to see their flaws and your own and the long, long list of why you wouldn't work together? is it giving up if you're really just changed your mind - or it was changed without your approval? is it a lie if you meant everything you said and said everything you felt?

i don't mean to hurt people. but i seem to be really good at it.

Up A Tree

Hurricane season is so not my favorite.

Dear Irene,
I'm over you. Please stop ruining my last week of vacation with your dreariness and torrential downpours that make having decent hair at work a pipe dream. I guess I should thank you though, because when I look out my office window and see rain it isn't nearly as bad as watching a perfect sunny day go to waste. So, thanks for that. Kinda.
Love,
Emily


We did have a few gorgeous days though, and tomorrow promises to be the last one before we get hit for real on Sunday (college move-in day, of course). I get to go to the beach one last time with my blue-eyed guy, which is super exciting because I am such a beach girl. Or, I would be, if I didn't have an 8-5 M-F real-life grownup job (what's with that, anyway?).

Pictures from gorgeous sunny Wednesday, when the BFF and I went to the museum grounds to take advantage of the sun:

(We took a lot more, but they're on my laptop. At home. Which is helpful to precisely no one.)

I was hoping to have something witty to close with ... but nope. It's my last full day of work so all of my energy is elsewhere. Or just non-existant. You choose.

If it's sunny where you are, go climb some trees for me, and be happy :) It's a waste of time to be anything else.